Busy busy busy...
Chillaxin' In: Mah Crib
Feelin': tired
Jammin' Along To: Mandy Moore - Lighthouse
Gawd I've been so busy lately.
Just finished the Halloween party series for our brand and I must say, apart from the hell (pardon the pun) I went through with logistics, the parties themselves were fun. I got to dress up 3x last week, capping it off with a full on devil costume on Halloween.
Meanwhile, it's midterms week in school. I'm worried for some of my students... I can only drag out so much scores from their answers. I mean, how do you grade:
1) "I will give him a sponge bath" on what to do with an intoxicated guest
2) "The significance of roads in the history of bars is that without that, we would not have anything to discuss in class"
3) "Haughtering" on how to lose guests
*doh*
I feel extremely fatigued lately... I think I may have put a little too much on my plate. I love teaching and I like my day job... If I were to choose between the two, I'd rather teach. Unfortunately though the teaching thing is part time and with the way my schedule's been lately, it really looks as if I have to give it up. I've taken to checking papers every possible moment, even in Chad's house. I don't feel like I have enough rest, too. It makes me sad, though... As of now I have got to keep the day job at least until I manage to get things started with the resto. I'm having a hard time balancing my relationships too. I would like to spend a date with Chad without thinking of the papers I have to grade and an event I'm working on, a Sunday with the family without worrying about not having enough sleep to be able to get me through the workweek, and have a bonafide "me" day. :) I can't even find the time nor strength to read books anymore.
I remember having had a similar dilemma a few years ago... See, if I keep my part time job, it won't be practical for me financially. If I keep my day job, I will have a hell of a time feeling fulfilled.
I think it will help to re-channel my goal list:
1) Open up a restaurant
2) Have a good family
3) Good health
4) Sticking to a job long enough
5) Be financially independent
6) Save up
7) Continue to be my own person who makes decisions for myself
8) Be a blessing to others
9) Travel
Oh well. :) The term's about to end first week of January. Wish me luck 'til then!
Meanwhile, I'm happy that a lot of my room has been sufficiently repaired post Ondoy. I just need to have one last drawer fixed, and replace my CDs. All of them. :( Think stuff from as far back as 1993...!
Chad & I just celebrated our 5th monthsary. :) I've never been so happy, I tell you. Cliche as it sounds, I can't even find the words to express how overjoyed I am to have him in my life! I've never felt so loved and cared for. And I love having regular dinners with his folks, no matter how grand or low key it is... I love seeing their dynamic as a family and the fact that they're comfortable showing that to me. I think it's partly because dad hasn't been around enough to show me a great mom & dad interaction. :) The feeling of being welcomed in their homey atmosphere overwhelms me in a good way. I can only aspire to have the same level of love when I reach their age.
I used to think exercise and prayer were such chores. I used to view exercise as a means to lose weight. I used to think of prayer as a religious ritual that was imposed to us, and that God would not bless us without praying. I also thought that we only pray if we have issues we have to deal with. But lately, I find so much peace in both... Like, running helps me keep my mind off work and issues (love the endorphines!) and prayer keeps me centered despite living a relatively more chaotic life than I used to. I read a saying that went, "God doesn't make the mountains smaller but the climb easier". I think I'm at that point in my prayer life... I don't feel like I can face the world without prayer and faith.
I like counting my blessings because no matter what happens to me, I know what I have and what I don't. I have a real home, a great boyfriend, true friends who don't need to be together 24/7 to be assured that we love each other, a very understanding family (and a wonderful pseudo-extended one with Chad's!), I'm not broke anymore, I work for a company that treats me like family, I get to touch people's lives through teaching, I can sing good enough to make people happy, I have a new car (Champagne!), and I have enough network to start a business (with the right financing and a killer chef).
Oh well, here's to hoping for a good day. Awful looking weather... I smell a traffic jam!





