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Flames to Dust...

April 7th, 2010 (11:18 am)
content

Chillaxin' In: Mah Crib
Feelin': content
Jammin' Along To: Nirvana - All Apologies

It is with extreme bittersweetness that I have finally decided to do the unthinkable.

Followers, this is my last blog entry.

I hate what I am about to do for several reasons... I really wanted to retain this blog for the rest of my life. I've had it for exactly 6 years now, and I transitioned through several phases of my life.

But alas...

For one thing, I've decided something over my mini-Holy Week semi-recollection: I refuse to look back in the past anymore. I think all the lessons I need to learn from it I've learned enough to MOVE ON. I refuse to liken myself to people who live in the past and are in denial of the present (such as letting go of past relationships when the ex-partner's OBVIOUSLY moved on and having an imaginary partner whose name sounds OH so familiar).

Another thing, I'm tired of having this particular blog being too public... I feel like my personality has been hacked. I refuse to hide my self any longer for fear of being copied (my liking of Stitch, furry animals, Calvin & Hobbes, running, my itinerary to the point of being followed abroad, having Chad as MY boyfriend). I'm blessed, and that's that. I think that it's not healthy for a woman to hide her fabulousness for anyone. If I should apologize to anyone, it should be to myself for allowing things to escalate to this level. I will never again feel sorry to anyone for being who I am. I am proud of who I am because, as I was reminded by women whose opinions matter the most to me, I AM WHO I AM, not someone patterned out of someone else's personality. I am who I am without any need to hide my past from the people I love the most. I am who I am to the point that I can post my ACTUAL pictures online without digital editing. I have everything I have because I have worked hard and prayed for them, never having the need to lie about pawning off a loved one's valuables to get them. I am not into drugs and promiscuity. If there's anything my past has taught me, it's who I am. I am allowed to be proud of my accomplishments, my REAL friends, and my family.

One other thing that is annoying about having this blog been made way too public is that, apart from me being hacked, a lot of information about me, my friends, and loved ones have been used as ammunition for other vile, malicious, pretentious people's ridicule. That's sick. I sincerely believe TRUE, REAL friends would never push you in the middle oncoming traffic and leave you to die. Apparently, some people have the audacity to proclaim loyalty when they're obviously traitors, taking advantage of other people's trust and good graces. Well enough is enough. The light has finally shown on the DARK places and truth has finally come out.

I apologize for sounding like I'm ending my 6 year blog with a lot of "passion". I'm gonna miss a lot about this... The Stitch design (which I've had since 2004), the entries... Looking back at some of them I realize that I've grown up so much. I sound completely different from when I started. I had so many adventures & misadventures, trials and tribulations... And it's the consistent stuff that I would like to be grateful for.

1) God - I had moments when I lost faith in Him but He never lost faith in me. God is truly an awesome God in many different ways... But if there's one thing this blog has been, I hope it has been a lesson for everyone that nothing can separate you from God's love.

2) Family - Those too have faced a series of ups and downs. But despite the passionate fights we have there's still an underlying love there that has remained consistent. We may not be the best family on earth (and to quote Stitch) but "It's little, and broken... But still good."

3) Friends - ROAT has CONSISTENTLY remained behind me through thick and... Thick? *lol* Yes, we have come a long way from skinny kids to adults. These people would never go back on me, would tell me UP FRONT and IMMEDIATELY if someone's hurting me, will never CHOOSE ANYONE OVER ME (least of all my worst enemies), and would never only call when they need something. I trust these people with my life.

My non-ROAT friends are too many to mention, but you all know who you are. Uichi, Sugar Plum, Kich, Anj et al, Chedie, gravityrulz... You have been way to sweet to me. Thank you for never putting me in harm's way, being there for me (through coffee nights, loaning me your mom for good advice, going for a girl talk via gelattos in the middle of the day, showing support even from a distance, etc). You guys are priceless. I will miss having this mode of communication to update you guys, but hey...! There are MANY other ways to communicate!

4) Work - Because at the end of the day, no matter how stupid work gets, I work. I'm proud to not be some stupid heiress who gets money from daddy... Everything I work for is mine. I may not have a lot, but I'm fulfilled for having stuff that's mine. As I was reminded of last night, a woman is not measured by the quantity of LVs she has, but by who she is inside.

5) My Past Amores - I wouldn't know what I wanted out of my lovelife without you. In line with this, I will now divulge a few secrets about this blog:

a) Why elaigh16? Well, 16 was the date of my first date with my boy next door sorta almost boyfriend. At the time of the conception of this blog, I wasn't completely over him. He was the guy I watched Lilo & Stitch with too.

b) What got me blogging? My college crush had a livejournal account (different from the aforementioned guy).


Most of all, I would like to thank Chad. MY BOYFRIEND Chad. Whose heartfelt undying support for me has assured me that no matter how many times ho-bags try to steal him away from me he will always be mine and mine alone. No amount of pretense, copying me, ridiculing me, ganging up on me, fictional boyfriends that occasionally sound like him (depending on the inconsistent name of the day), or blog entries defiling his hard work will ever take him away from me.

And thus, it is with this sad note that I greet you au revoir. Will I ever blog again? Maybe. Who knows. But that's for ME to know, and my REAL friends to find out. ;)

elaigh16 [userpic]

Guess Who's Back? *lolz*

March 14th, 2010 (08:39 am)
contemplative

Chillaxin' In: Mah Crib
Feelin': contemplative
Jammin' Along To: Eminem - Shake That A$$ For Me

Gosh it HAS been so long since I last blogged. I will spare you the litany of microblogging taking precedence of my actual blog. Instead I will update you on random stuff in my life:

1) Health

My health has been on major crisis mode for the past few months. I had a 6 cm cyst on my right ovary which caused quite a scare. Thankfully medication did its trick and the cyst is gone, but they still have to regulate my hormonal imbalance issues.

My anemia acted up quite a bit a few weeks ago that caused vertigo.

And the piece de resistance: I got rushed to the hospital two nights ago (which prompted me to miss the event I was looking forward to). Severe gastritis that caused vomiting & diarrhea & dehydration. It got so bad that, to avoid risking me expunging medication, they IV'ed the meds through my hand. Ugh. Severe trauma.

This was apparently all stress related. Ugh.

2) Wine Work

They FINALLY hired someone to be my counterpart for different areas in Manila. Unfortunately, I had to train her over the week, add that to the strain of my actual work.

On top of that they made us attend a seminar a couple of weeks ago and my boss in all his memory loss glory decided to inform me Monday morning. Right. It was midterms week in CSB and I had booked appointments for the whole week.

All contributed by my stress, I was told.

Barcino's tried to pirate me for a managerial position, with higher pay and the ability to stay in house. I told my boss, and they were kind enough to add stuff to my benefits and pay. I'm flattered... I sometimes don't feel like I'm being taken seriously at work and having been counter offered gave me a sense of validation. Apparently wine-o's with sales & marketing capabilities are hard to come by and quite frankly, we can demand a higher pay.

In line with my staying with my current company, I realized I turned 2 years last 3 March. Embarrassingly, this is actually my longest job post tenure, and ironically, when I got into this, I really wasn't sure I was going to last long nor take it seriously. I was, after all, on my way out, and the state of my life early 2008 was not really in a good place. Lo and behold, here I am. Who knew?

3) School Work

I like my students this term by leaps and bounds over the bratty a-holes I had last term. They gave me flowers for teacher's day and like approaching me. I've had so many experiences with them, including a bullied kid, a kid with hypertension, athletes, expats, etc. But I seriously like them way better.

As for teaching next term, well... I really don't want to continue. My health issues are killing me and I seriously need to take it slow. Who knows.

4) Chad

Chad has been a total trooper for all the stuff I've been going through... I've been burned out and sick over and over again and throughout it all I could not ask for a more patient, understanding, caring boyfriend. Despite everything, I'm still so blessed to have him.

I had a funny shopping experience with him & his mom yesterday. Tita Ettie has a tendency to go on about the American Women's Bazaar and having found out about the USEC Bazaar (which apparently were related), she decided to invite me to tag along. She was way too cute, mapping out the stalls like shopping was a battle plan. And she was right, the place was fab! Apparently the USEC & AWB are very strict when it comes to stalls and do not allow imitation stuff sold. Overruns, yes. Think Elle & CK clothes which I got for PHP550 & PHP650 respectively!

The other fun part was Tita Ettie fitting pants like mine, and the saleslady telling me, "ay parehas kayo ng mama mo na size 6 (hey, you and your mom are both size 6)". FTW?!? *lol* Well, I think Tita Ettie looks fab for a woman her age and I'm flattered to be thought of as her daughter. And, funny thing, we ended up buying the same black & white dress. *lol*

Here's to more fun adventures worth writing about. Salud!

elaigh16 [userpic]

Gibberish From My Strongly Opinionated Self

January 22nd, 2010 (05:57 pm)
lethargic

Chillaxin' In: Mah Crib
Feelin': lethargic
Jammin' Along To: Keri Hilson - Get Your Money Up



Part I.
I find it terribly sad that women these days are no longer made to believe that behaving like a lady is important. This stems from my having just had an encounter with a woman blatantly professing her desire publicly to a man who was already taken. I mean, maybe there are several circumstances leading to that… I’m not saying that cheating or being cheated with is a noble thing to do. Unfortunately I adhere to the societal double standard of women looking worse when they cheat on men. But publicly throwing yourself like a pathetic dog to a man who will never love you is just that: pathetic. I’m sad for these people… I wish their parents taught them better.

Part II.
In line with that, I have been listening to a friend of mine getting over a guy who cheated on her. In the first place, the guy cheated on her predecessor with her. So at the end of the day, what made her think that he wouldn’t be capable of doing the same to her? What a waste of a perfectly cool, pretty, nice, and intelligent woman. I’m not discounting what the guy did… I mean, cheating is cheating and for me that’s equivalent to a crime. But that’s probably just me.

Part III.
Speaking of cheating, I find it disturbing that in F&B, cheating on someone is so banal. I mean, I just talked to a client whose boyfriend blatantly cheated on her. Think bringing the other woman to her restaurant in front of her staff, bringing the other woman to Bora with all of them there… And it took THAT to get her to dump him. And this girl was way too pretty and talented to deserve that. I think she deserved better than that and why it took that long for her to dump him is beyond me.

Part IV.
Someone showed up to my dummy gig last night and mercilessly ripped me apart. I mean, it’s a “dummy” gig because it was only the second time I jammed with that particular pianist and admittedly, we weren’t fully polished yet. She was actually a fantastic singer, having grabbed the mic from me and singing herself. She gave me so many pointers and decided to try to land me a gig in Oman with her. Had I been less focused with my life, I would have jumped at the opportunity, but all I want is to open my resto here. I just let it slide because she was horribly drunk.
I must admit to having mixed emotions on this sometimes. Whenever I grab a mic in some gig I always get offered a gig. If I really think about it, I’ve been told to do it professionally so many times, I should consider it. But that’s not what I want to do… As it is my gigs are for Norman, the owner of the place. That’s about as far as I would like to take it.

Part V.
I had the most fun photo shot last night. My body has changed so much since my self-imposed retirement that I no longer know how to work with what I have. *lol* Ella Reyes is the most fantastic makeup artist to work with because of her extensive knowledge of products and how to make it work for you, plus she wasn’t the type to just push her style on you (which I hated with other artists I worked with). I loved Anama for impromptu directing the shoot… She was so much fun and creative to work with. And Paul was great for patiently having put up with us, he and Ella are lucky to have each other. And of course, my Chad for shooting.

Part VI.
I have the most diverse students this term… And yes, I decided to renew my contract with CSB. I figured the worst happened last term, and it’s great to have friends who are established profs already to have my back in terms of sound advice and moral support. Anyway. In my first class, I have one Filipino-Korean who can speak fluent Filipino and one mainland Chinese guy who has a respectable grasp of Filipino slang and expressions that, upon asking me to transfer him closer to the board, he told me it was because it was “too malayo”. Oh, and a very pretty Filipino-Indian who shocked me by speaking in straight Filipino. My second class is the most fun… One Thai, one Cantonese (HK), two annoying Korean brats, one Taiwanese, and a Fil-Am-Irish basketball player by the name of McCoy. Can you say headache? *lol* My classrooms are now officially English-Only-Classrooms.
I also ran into my Chinese guys yesterday. I never knew how fulfilling it was to find out that they were graduating after this term.

Part VII.
I am getting old. I realize that the dilemmas my friends and I face these days involve getting married (Edjo’s is done, there’s Alaine’s to go to now, and there’s a batchmate’s that I keep getting news about online) or having kids (goodluck Fluff!). I somehow miss those days where our problems revolved around allowances not being enough and solving them through the PHP7.00 KFC meal…!

Part VIII.
Speaking of food around campus, I miss Tolits along Agno. I had fun reliving those glory days with my second class while I was trying to figure out what to have for lunch yesterday.

Part IX.
I had fun getting Chad his early Valentine’s Day present (much to Kichi’s gratefulness because it calmed him down significantly enough before he burned down her office building). It wasn’t easy, especially having had to deal with some of the worst Fully Booked staff I ever encountered (think having the book in front of their face for about five minutes and not finding it). But it was so cute when he finally got it… I purposely gave it as early as possible because I wanted him to be the first in Manila to have it.

Part X.
Mama’s such a cute diva. Mama’s always been such a simple lady and never had anything luxurious for herself, so I decided, for Alaine’s wedding, to have one of my designer friends make her a custom-made, designer original Ninang dress. I’m so happy to give her that without her knowing… See, his average dress goes for about 10k, but for me he gave it at 7k. Mama’s budget is 4k, so I decided to secretly put up the rest of the money for it.

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Long Overdue Year-End Revelations, and On to 2010!

January 3rd, 2010 (09:09 pm)
thankful

Chillaxin' In: Mah Crib
Feelin': thankful
Jammin' Along To: Chris Brown - Transform Ya

As mentioned in previous entries, microblogging seems to take the place of blogging. I must admit having gotten addicted to it a bit too much, and my blog has suffered the consequences.

As I look back in the year that was, I realized that it was a year of bests for me... Best New Year's, best Valentine's (work nonwithstanding), best summer vacay in Bora, best Birthday, best Christmas, etc... All of which were spent with the best boyfriend ever, who I got together with 2009 too. Career-wise, I've done so much work both for school & my day job, and my day job sort of thrived with all the press our products got (as well as me, hehehe).

It was of course not without setbacks... I found out I had health issues that threatened my ability to bear children, I lost a lot of things during the flood, school admin treated me like crap (as with everyone else, apparently), work has not been all fine and dandy, and I've been stalked like crazy.

But I would like to think of the things I'm grateful for as opposed to setbacks, and I would like for some setbacks to turn into blessings.

So allow me to share the top 10 things I'm grateful for this year:

1) God

Not religion, and I apologize for the cheesiness of this post. I noticed a lot of changed with my faith. I still don't claim to be a saint, but I now realize so many things in my life and God. There's something to be said about things that suddenly click and make sense in my heart and head. I used to give up on God so easily whenever things did not go my way, but even looking back, I'm grateful He gave me a chance to make better decisions in my life, and showing me that the level of hurdles did not get easy, but He's constantly there. It shows, I am not as fazed as I once was in handling issues. I still get cranky, sure, but I found myself less consciously making destructive decisions in relation to problem solving.

2) My Family

My family is just there. They've accepted so much flak from me, & I must admit upon doing this entry there's a part of me that worries that I would not be sincere about being thankful for them. I miss my having lived away from them which I still believe contributed to much of my work sanity, but at the end of the day, to know that there's someone by you no matter what is comforting. I may not always agree with my family's beliefs, but looking further back, I am not who I am without a lot of what they've done to me, good or bad. I'm not bitter, on the contrary, I'm happy. Recently someone conforted me by telling me that I've carried myself ok despite the situation, and I think it's largely because of mama's showing me what strength is. I'm not a sissy when it comes to stuff normal people would whine about, and I've been taught to carry myself in a respectable manner regardless of the situation. And I think mama's responsible for that. I wish I listened early on, though, but still. I'm who I am at the perfect time.

3) My Chad

God... How many ways can I be thankful about my Chad? I've never met anyone so thoughtful, patient, loving, understanding, gentlemanly, and sweet. I've never been loved so well and in so many ways. He loves me for who I was, I am, and who I want to be. I've never been so happy. :)

4) My Friends

I sincerely believe that my friends are my greatest treasures. I'm happy that I have real friends who, despite busy schedules that allow us to see each other once every so often, are there for me, no questions asked, no pretensions, no worries that they might me feeding me to the dogs. My real friends have the best of my intentions and it's pretty cool to know I know who they are.

I also have acquaintances who are fantastic, party mates, colleagues (some of them at least), a business network that I could count on, and even Chad's colleagues! I found new partymates and even friends (and even support groups!) with Chad's colleagues, which is fantastic. They're so much fun and are some of the best bunch of people I've ever met.

I'm glad I'm at that point in my life where I've experienced so much, I know the ones who pretend to be my friends and those who really are. It's sad, but without them, I wouldn't be who I am.

5) My enemies

A few years ago this could not have been farther from the truth. But let me explain: Without one enemy, I wouldn't know who my friends are.

My cyberstalker inadvertently made me a better person by teaching me the art of grace, and learning about The Secret without reading the book. See, I had to limit what I blog or plurk to positive things that happened, and I kept having to fight back the urge to post about crap that happened at work or my personal life. But it allowed me to apply the power of positive suggestion in my life, and heck, it gave me great stuff to look back on. It also allowed me to grow up even more my keeping my emotions in check before publicly posting, which I think is a good way to build character.

I must say I'm sad for my cyberstalker though... I know he/she tried desperately hard to put me down and put him/herself leaps and bounds above me (albeit fictionally) but not only failed miserably but made me the best person I could be, and even showed me who my friends really are. So thanks! :)

6) The Sotelos

Some days I still wonder what they like about me, but over and above all else, I'm very happy that they made me feel so welcome. Tita Ettie is the classiest, God fearing lady I've ever met, I sort of am beginning to get how it feels to have an omnipresent father in Tito Tony (because prior to him, I really didn't know how to properly interact with a dad), an older sister who is completely honest enough to tell you exactly how things are and even blatantly give me her full support, a brother in law who showed me how to be a fantastic father and husband, a niece who showed me how it is to just instantly love someone and be her best friend, and a nephew who showed me that having kids is not scary but is no joke either. I feel like I have another family apart from mine and I feel so loved and grateful.

7) A job/career path

Two really (granting I renew my contract in CSB, which is still up in the air). People have been losing their jobs due to the economic crisis and I'm blessed to be in a job I like (shenanigans nonwithstanding) and allows me to explore my personal life. I have great, patient, and open minded bosses who have also expressed so much support during trying times. I'm happy that my career path has slowly mapped itself out for me in the direction I want. People my age have a hard time grasping that and some, sadly, even have no direction. I'm glad that I know I want a resto and a wine degree. :) I know that I have Fluffy to be grateful to for helping me find direction. I'll always be thankful for her helping me find out what I want.

8) A new car

I've never been able to have a BRAND NEW car. I must say it's pretty nifty.

9) Ending the year debt free

Looking back at the end of 2007 when I had no direction and no money, I am in the best place of my financial life. I'm also happy that where I am financially had nothing to do with what my parents gave me... I'm happy to say that everything I own I bought, some were gifts by friends, sure. But I'm not completely financially dependent anymore. I think I need one more year to be COMPLETELY financially independent, but heck. I will get there. And to start from zero and have saved what I did with what I make...? I'm proud of myself.

10) Travel

I went to Tagaytay, Punta Fuego, Hong Kong, Macau, Boracay, and Cebu this year, and all of the travel I did with Chad. I'm so happy. :)


Stuff to look forward to on 2010:

1) Edjo's Wedding
2) Alaine's wedding
3) Fluffy's baby

Stuff I want to achieve:

1) Credit Card
2) US Visa
3) WSET in May
4) Start on working on the resto

Cheers to you, the year that was, and the year that is to be. :)

elaigh16 [userpic]

Blog Blog Blog...

November 28th, 2009 (12:08 pm)
happy

Chillaxin' In: Mah Crib
Feelin': happy
Jammin' Along To: Beyonce & Lady Gaga - Video Phone

To echo my one of my friends' sentiments, the thing about microblogging is that it inadvertently kills your blog. I have been a total ploork junkie lately & I realized I haven't been updating my actual blog.

There are many reasons behind this though... My blog's settings are for public viewing, my plurk is on private. It summat makes me feel sad that I can't be as open about my life on my blog anymore, but some sacrifices do have to be made to keep my privacy. Some followers of my blog have been pretty strange to say the least.

I must admit that I miss being able to talk in the first person, though. :)

So, random updates!

1) Love Love Love...

I'm still happily in love. People who are important to me and even those who are in my social network love Chad for me, and heck, I agree. :) I was reminiscing with Doc Harry about having a couple of beers in Murphy's roundabout Christmas, keeping each other sane during our "singlehood". I'm happy both he & I have found significant others who make us happy. I'm re-listening to Imogen Heap's Goodnight & Go because it reminds me of my state of mind when I started going out with Chad. I know, I know... Cheesy. I'm still finding it disgusting how I can be so cheesy, but hey.

2) Work Work Work...

As I've said, I will be quitting teaching after this term. It's too taxing, & quite frankly, CSB Admin people don't treat their professors right. The details are in my plurk, but I must say I'm extremely disappointed.

As for my day job... Well, I was going through stuff with Chad last night & we've realized that they've given me everything I've wanted from the company this year: new car, promotion, increase... In fact I've gotten my 13th month + incentive + salary + reimbursements yesterday & I got baffled by the amount. I've never gotten that much in half a month...!

3) Christmas!!!

I've never been this excited for Christmas in years! I'm looking forward to the bazaars (& I apologize for not posting exactly which ones, security purposes). I'm psyched that Chad's sister's family is coming over. And would you believe his family actually gave me tickets & accommodations to join their out of town trip? I'm absolutely speechless!!!

4) Running

Chad & I have been running around in different parts of town for fun, fitness, & endorphines. I miss it but alas, my "visitor" has been erratic due to stress & I have to rest it out for another week.

5) Art

Chad bought me Tita Vicky Zubiri's painting. It's my first art piece, & I love it! The title is Summer 2008. I love it because it's Summer, my favorite season of the year, the colors are fantastic, & 2008 was the year that changed my life. Initially priced at PHP 20,000.00, Steph suddenly approached us & told us that since they love us, they gave it at a much, much lower price, to be paid to Tita Vicky's charity. Chad was flabbergasted. :) I love the Zubiris... Politics aside (coz I _hate_ politics), they're a pretty real, sweet family.


Looking back at this entry, I remember Chad having asked me what I want for Christmas. I have everything I ever want or need... It's not perfect yet, but I'm happy to be in such a good place in my life. My family, pseudo-extended family, friends, & for the first time in my life my career & finances, are great. :)

elaigh16 [userpic]

Busy busy busy...

November 5th, 2009 (08:30 am)
tired

Chillaxin' In: Mah Crib
Feelin': tired
Jammin' Along To: Mandy Moore - Lighthouse

Gawd I've been so busy lately.

Just finished the Halloween party series for our brand and I must say, apart from the hell (pardon the pun) I went through with logistics, the parties themselves were fun. I got to dress up 3x last week, capping it off with a full on devil costume on Halloween.

Meanwhile, it's midterms week in school. I'm worried for some of my students... I can only drag out so much scores from their answers. I mean, how do you grade:

1) "I will give him a sponge bath" on what to do with an intoxicated guest
2) "The significance of roads in the history of bars is that without that, we would not have anything to discuss in class"
3) "Haughtering" on how to lose guests

*doh*

I feel extremely fatigued lately... I think I may have put a little too much on my plate. I love teaching and I like my day job... If I were to choose between the two, I'd rather teach. Unfortunately though the teaching thing is part time and with the way my schedule's been lately, it really looks as if I have to give it up. I've taken to checking papers every possible moment, even in Chad's house. I don't feel like I have enough rest, too. It makes me sad, though... As of now I have got to keep the day job at least until I manage to get things started with the resto. I'm having a hard time balancing my relationships too. I would like to spend a date with Chad without thinking of the papers I have to grade and an event I'm working on, a Sunday with the family without worrying about not having enough sleep to be able to get me through the workweek, and have a bonafide "me" day. :) I can't even find the time nor strength to read books anymore.

I remember having had a similar dilemma a few years ago... See, if I keep my part time job, it won't be practical for me financially. If I keep my day job, I will have a hell of a time feeling fulfilled.

I think it will help to re-channel my goal list:

1) Open up a restaurant
2) Have a good family
3) Good health
4) Sticking to a job long enough
5) Be financially independent
6) Save up
7) Continue to be my own person who makes decisions for myself
8) Be a blessing to others
9) Travel

Oh well. :) The term's about to end first week of January. Wish me luck 'til then!

Meanwhile, I'm happy that a lot of my room has been sufficiently repaired post Ondoy. I just need to have one last drawer fixed, and replace my CDs. All of them. :( Think stuff from as far back as 1993...!

Chad & I just celebrated our 5th monthsary. :) I've never been so happy, I tell you. Cliche as it sounds, I can't even find the words to express how overjoyed I am to have him in my life! I've never felt so loved and cared for. And I love having regular dinners with his folks, no matter how grand or low key it is... I love seeing their dynamic as a family and the fact that they're comfortable showing that to me. I think it's partly because dad hasn't been around enough to show me a great mom & dad interaction. :) The feeling of being welcomed in their homey atmosphere overwhelms me in a good way. I can only aspire to have the same level of love when I reach their age.

I used to think exercise and prayer were such chores. I used to view exercise as a means to lose weight. I used to think of prayer as a religious ritual that was imposed to us, and that God would not bless us without praying. I also thought that we only pray if we have issues we have to deal with. But lately, I find so much peace in both... Like, running helps me keep my mind off work and issues (love the endorphines!) and prayer keeps me centered despite living a relatively more chaotic life than I used to. I read a saying that went, "God doesn't make the mountains smaller but the climb easier". I think I'm at that point in my prayer life... I don't feel like I can face the world without prayer and faith.

I like counting my blessings because no matter what happens to me, I know what I have and what I don't. I have a real home, a great boyfriend, true friends who don't need to be together 24/7 to be assured that we love each other, a very understanding family (and a wonderful pseudo-extended one with Chad's!), I'm not broke anymore, I work for a company that treats me like family, I get to touch people's lives through teaching, I can sing good enough to make people happy, I have a new car (Champagne!), and I have enough network to start a business (with the right financing and a killer chef).

Oh well, here's to hoping for a good day. Awful looking weather... I smell a traffic jam!

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Shopping!

October 20th, 2009 (11:04 am)
lazy

Chillaxin' In: Mah Crib
Feelin': lazy
Jammin' Along To: CMB - I Wanna Sex You Up

I have a new shopping list:

1) Drawer Liners (so I can FINALLY put my clothes back in my drawers)
2) CD Cases (to put my CDs in since my CDs are Ondoy victims)
3) Wine Racks

Random stuff:

1) My car got delayed, so I'm working from home today.
2) Met up with Uichi yesterday. I miss that guy and his insanity. And his evil plots on world domination.
3) I'm psyched for Christmas!

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